Usually angry music like melodic black metal or heavy stoner/doom. somehow gives me the right energy to get out of the slump.

I condensed the posts a bit since it was a bit too vague.

That reads more like connecting my own devices in a private VPN right?
I was hoping for an alternative to Nord and the likes.

Checking it out, thanks

I think the OP is looking for a decentralized alternative to something like Nord/Express/Mullvad to hide their traffic, and not a way to connect their devices together.

exactly! Sorry if i didn’t write that clearly in the post.

Yeah I was thinking of TOR when I read about the concept, but I did read a lot in the past how a lot of the nodes aren’t really secure anymore.
I’ll check out the other suggestions. The sidebar doesn’t mention piracy, so I’ll just come out the gate and say that that’s my usecase via torrents.
Which can get pretty expensive where I live due to absurd legal definitions. My thought process was if a P2P VPN gets me through another country where it’s not persecuted as much I’d be safer than going with the proprietary big names.